There is an ancient wheel that is forever
new. The rim is our lives turning around and around in
continuous cycles of birth and death. The hub is the single
unmoving center. Radiating from the center a thousand spokes
connect to our being. At any point in space-time, there
exists for all a unique path to the center.
I had not known such a
It was totally
unexpected. But, rather than it being a crucifixion, a death
experience of the collapse of the ego as most have
described, it was a very natural spontaneous falling in. It
was a comfortable homecoming, a melting without resistance.
This phantom which is
“I” was drawn to the mountain,
Fell through the
Burned a hole in
Dissolved in the
And, beheld for my
the center of the
Emitter of all that is, and is not.
The Perfect Power and
the Absolute Expression.
Liking as unto an
meditating in the silent womb beyond infinity,
the nameless O N E,
Who else could it be?
“Heaven” is not a
place, it is a state. Any place is subject to age, decay,
transformation. Heaven is a returning to our Source. Union
with the ONE. The ONE is abiding perfection, outside of all
encompassing, a constant pure being, without describable
quality. A waking out of the dream of seeming, a becoming
what we have always been.
Dimensionless. As is
awareness, thought, idea.
In returning, we do
not “retrace” our awareness back to the Emitter. It is a
dissolving of the layers of obscuring illusion, allowing our
always present original awareness to become revealed. A
What we take to be our
personal awareness is in truth the awareness of the ONE, at
a distance. Awareness is like a funnel, the big end at the
ONE, and the little end in our physical mind. The closer we
approach the ONE, the more our awareness encompasses, and
the smaller becomes our sense of self, our isolation. We
simultaneously “shrink” and “expand.” All opposites are
reconciled. All limitations are discarded, all distractions
are forgotten, all “seeming” burned in the fire of knowing,
and fused in the furnace of being. Until.. all that remains
is “THAT” which is.
I AM THAT I AM
It is inconceivable,
the Absolute of all attributes, beyond naming. But, it is
not in the least intimidating. It is incredibly gentle,
loving. It is me. And, it is you. And, all that is. And, all
that is not. Perfect power is perfect gentleness. And we are
There will come a day,
when you forget about
being your name,
care nothing for ostentation,
power or wealth,
pleasures of the senses become stale,
when your whole being
is driven by one thing only…
The desire to know.
Then, you may suddenly
and spontaneously fall into yourself.
Your mind will open,
and all of the
Universe will scroll before your eyes,
and you will see,
and you will remember.
and you will know!
Knowing and seeing
will no longer be second hand, as we experience in our
physical body; sensual experiences converted to electrical
impulses, in turn converted in the mind to working concepts,
of a seeming reality. Ideas and reflected thoughts derived
from language and words and second removed sensual
experience, highlighted by occasional glimpses of intuition.
We, a part of, and yet separate from, the material universe.
The realization that
you were in a dream, and are now freed from that dream,
brings with it great joy. You realize for certain that you
are much more than you seemed to be. That all you ever
hoped, all you ever suspected, is true. You are, in fact,
indestructible, absolutely secure, and timeless. You are
older than old, pure, intelligent, aware, energy. That
energy is the seemingly omnipotent power of pure crystalline
thought. Not a reflection of thought, as we experience in
our physical self. Not concepts and sensual interpretations,
but direct perceptions.
Free at last!
Free at last!
Thank God almighty!
I’m free at last!
We find ourselves no
longer cast out and separate, but inside. Our sequential
thinking has become pure thought being. No longer a prisoner
of our bodies, we realize beyond all doubt that all things,
all matter, is purely “Idea,” that we and the Universe are
but a projection of the Conceiver of that idea.
Matter and time no
longer exist, except as an idea which is also us. What we
took to be our self is seen to be only an idea projection of
our boundless real Self, which is in turn an idea projection
of something beyond. Although we are aware that we, and
matter, are of the same substance, and we can, therefore,
manipulate matter at will from this state of pure thought,
it does not seem important to do so. Since, from here, our
self and matter is only an idea, a trivial concept, a tool
that no longer bears any relevance. We feel only the
beckoning of the beyond. Will only to know at last, THAT!
The Unmoving Center
Pure energy, the
energy is thought…the thought is idea…the idea is everything
that ever was, is, will be everywhere, anywhere, nowhere.
Driven only by the longing for the wholeness of our being,
willing only for absolute knowing, to go on as far as can be
gone; all that “was” vanishes, and we disappear into depths
beyond infinity, become an unbounded expansion within an
invisible indivisible point,
“Smaller than a
And we go beyond, to
before and besides.
Shadow and light,
white wind in the night.
Pure and harmless,
childlike, and forever.
The nameless ONE of
The emitter of all.
you and me,
have always been.
There is a vast
difference between what we seem to be and what we are. The
difference between our apparent self and our real Self
(atman) is the difference between reflected moonlight and
The difference between
the Self and the ONE (Brahman) is the difference between
sunlight, and being the sun! The difference between the self
and the Self is the difference between water in a bottle and
clouds. The difference between The Self and the ONE is the
difference between clouds and being the seas.
If you do not
remember, it is not because you cannot remember. Because you
are not aware of the knowledge, does not mean the knowledge
is not there. You eat an apple, and the body converts that
apple to energy and body tissue. You can do it, but you are
not aware of how you do it.
“And the spirit of God
moved upon the face of the deep.”
Your conscious mind is
the spirit moving upon the surface of the water. What you
are aware of in your conscious mind is only the reflection
of what you actually are. What is actually there is broader
and deeper than you can imagine.
It is boundless,
timeless, beyond infinity.
And, it is accessible.
There is a place where
past, present and future merge into an invisible point. In a
timeless eternity, there is no past or future. All past and
future is in the present. There exists only the singular,
ever present emanation of now.
The, I AM.
continuously from here to the ONE and continuously from here
the other way, into the atom to no one knows where. What we
experience as thought, and senses, is but a narrow band of
that continuous medium. Just as what we experience as light
and sound is but narrow bands of a continuous medium that
extends both ways and includes radio, TV and microwaves of
which our senses remain unaware.
The layers of
consciousness are established by the range of sensitivity of
the beings inhabiting that band, and often overlap. The
outer waves are the “dreams,” and the inner waves are the
“dreamers,” and really there is no difference since all is
dream and all is dreamer, and all is one. The waves of Mind
get purer and more powerful, as they approach the center,
and less apparent as they approach matter.
The decent of Mind
into matter, and the ascent back to the ONE, is the periodic
“breathing out and the breathing in” of consciousness,
fluctuating in and out between the three layers within the
waves. That is why nothing dies, and everything is alive,
because everything that seems to be is simply a band of Mind
frequencies within the common Mind, periodically shifting
position within the bands.
We must realize that
Mind is all there is. Everything and everyone is the same
Mind. We do not change “states of existence” from one plane
to another, but only change range of sensitivity as we
evolve back through the emitters, to the O N E perfect mind
from which we began. This same range of frequency principle
is apparent in the structure of the material world.
Non-existence of Matter
Our body only appears
solid because of the scale. Actually we are composed of
atoms. Protons, electrons and neutrons, which are in turn
composed of things like quarks. The structure of these atoms
is such that we are composed mostly of space, with the tiny
atom components widely separated, similar to the stars in
the night sky. A sub atomic particle from the sun could pass
right through us and never hit anything.
Further, when we look
at atomic particles themselves we find they too are
separated by enormous distances. And, they are not really
particles at all but merely tiny packets of balanced energy.
Our body and all
matter is simply a force field. Essentially, there is
nothing there. It is like a box that the Chinese have. You
open the box, and there is another box inside. Open that and
there is another, then another. Finally you get to the last
tiny box. You open that one and it is empty.
Or, it is like an
onion. You peel off the outer layer, and there is another,
then another. You continue peeling until you get to the
center, and there is nothing.
We have an invisible
mind governing a body that is not there.
NOT TOO SOON.
NOT TOO FAR.
YOUR MIND WILL
BE A FIRE.
It may be hard for you
to believe now,
but I can tell you the truth.
What you feel to be your life,
your thoughts, your indivduality
and isolation, your troubles, and elation…
are only I M A G I N A
T I O N .
I can tell you the
and please believe.
When you finally,
Where you are,
Who you are, and
What you have been doing,
IT is so beautiful!
IT will buckle your
double you over,
wrench your heart,
and make you cry so,
that you think you will die.
BUT YOU WILL NOT DIE!
YOU CANNOT DIE!
YOU WOULD NOT KNOW